Difficult Yet Simple

by Jenny on January 24, 2012

More on the decision to quit my job to move to Korea (click the highlighted link for the post related to this decision)…

Making the decision to leave my job and career behind in Baltimore to travel to Korea with Brian was one of the hardest decisions I’ve had to make but at the same time it was the easiest.

I have been with the same company since 2006, when I began work as a part-time employee and quickly advanced to full-time within months of starting. Before I knew it, I was advancing further in the company and finally came to settle in with my current position as a manager of close to 300 employees. My career has always been something important to me and regardless of the huge commitment that my line of work is, I have always put 100% effort into every long hour at the office.

I love my co-workers and enjoy managing the group of employees that report to me. I’ve loved watching the relationship that I have with them mold into one that is full of mutual respect, understanding and encouragement. I love how far the staff, as a whole, has come in the time that I have been working with them and I appreciate the way that they have helped me grow both professionally and personally.

Reading that, I’m sure you can understand why the decision to leave my job was in a way difficult. Not to mention, the idea of being financially dependent on someone else is an idea that scares me! But Brian and I are “we” now and as a couple, “we” can make the financial aspect work for the months that I will be out of a job.  In addition, I didn’t want leaving my job to “follow” Brian to make me lose my identity.  I didn’t want it to have me morph into the woman who came along with Brian.  I’m a fairly independent person and the thought of losing my independence was daunting for me.  However, taking these steps to experience a wonderful opportunity for Brian to play baseball abroad doesn’t make me just his second half.  I’ve come to realize that it makes me even more of a confident, independent woman that knows what she wants and isn’t scared of taking chances.  What if there are some bumps in the road?  I’m not worried, I’ll use them as leverage to help me get to where I’m going.  I already have plans of part-time work and also thoughts and desires of where I want to go professionally when we are again settled in the States.  After all, every new beginning comes from some other beginning’s end.

That being said, with as hard as it will be to leave my organization on March 1st, it will be beyond simple at the same time. What makes it so easy? Being with Brian. There is not one part of me that doesn’t want to spend this season with him in Korea and experience this wonderful adventure with him! I absolutely do not love my job more than I love Brian and ultimately the option of not traveling with him was never really an option at all. He has my full support, as I know I would have his if an opportunity like this arose for me. So yes, the decision was an easy one.

Is it going to be tough at times? Sure. Am I going to miss my family and friends here in the States? Beyond belief. Is it going to be painful to be away from our third family member, Telli? No doubt. Will it all be okay and manageable? Absolutely. How so? Because WE will be there together.

{ 9 comments… read them below or add one }

1 Katie January 24, 2012 at 10:24 am

Way to get in a Friends with Benefits reference…my new favorite movie.

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2 Jenny January 24, 2012 at 11:56 am

haha I didn’t even realize it :)

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3 Meaghan@ChooseYourJourney January 24, 2012 at 10:46 am

Totally makes sense to me. Sounds like your job is a great one, but Korea will be such an awesome adventure to start out married life.

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4 Jenny January 24, 2012 at 11:56 am

Thanks Meaghan!! I miss our morning runs talking about things like this!!

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5 Life's a Bowl January 24, 2012 at 11:46 am

Love conquers all! I’d make the same decision if I was in the same situation…

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6 Dan January 24, 2012 at 2:28 pm

Good for you. Lots of folks go through life never being able to make a decision of this magnitude. You’re life will be much richer for it.

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7 Jenny January 25, 2012 at 12:17 pm

Thanks Dan!!! I’m hoping that ultimately it only makes me stronger as an individual and leads me to other places in my life that I may not have ventured before given this opportunity and making this decision.

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8 sanfranschooling January 24, 2012 at 4:02 pm

proud of you, happy for you, go get em :)

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9 Jenny January 25, 2012 at 12:15 pm

Thanks Laur!!!!

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